Saturday, December 25, 2004
i guess i have think thru
i guess i have come out with an ans..
i stay in the middle..
yups..
maybe i wil just let evrything slowly takes it place..
fate or wateva..
i will just take one step at a time..
i wont noe the result
neither would i noe what i will do..
for i have reallyno idea..
i don wanna make a mistake
i don wanna lose the chance..
nither do i wanna history repeat on its own..
reflectin thru..
i really do wonder why things have happen..
but theres nothin i can do now.
i'll just let nature takes its couse.
i hope i have made the right decision..
i hope i did.. cos i don wnna everything to fall apart
i don wana go thru everything again..
thinkin thru the night..
i doubted lots of stuff,,
though i realy donnoe..
but..
i guess.. everything is not for me ta judge..
i gues everything is just apart of my life..
many qns came thru..
one was.. wat was my reaction..
is this dream or nighmare..
is this somethin i wanna it ta happen..
i donnoe,,
it this something taht i can choose..
everything is so confusin..
i hate thinkin thru all this stuff...
it always have no ending to this kind..
its hard.. and i don wanna make the decision..
but .. i noe i have ta...
ta end all this.
buut i really feell i am not worth..
at this time..
when thing arrive to this state,,
iwould always have no courage...
i would always have no strength...
why must this always happen..
at this time..
sometimes.. i guess everthing is nt up ta us
today is christmas.
and nothin really special happen..
was with my neighbou celebratin..
slackin at one corner..
ate log cakes and stuff..
the normal routine i guess..
then went ta roof top to enjoy the breeze..
was really beautiful up there..
chatted and stayed there
so now at home...
have nothin to do..
so decided to blog..
